Monday was another relaxing day. Karen came in and fed the hungry guy, fed me, and then put me on my side for a while… All this staying in bed is giving me a pressure store, so now I can't even get up and exercise; I'm noticing my body atrophying. I'm not even getting a lot done on the computer because I am so worried about finding a caregiver; this is ridiculous! Karen decorated the inside of the house a little more and then went home. I did anything I could think of to keep myself busy, playing games, editing pictures, listening to music, looking for exciting books on audible… I guess I have a couple hundred in my library, but I still need to read, but all I find myself doing is playing games, which is the only thing that completely takes my mind off everything. I'm a work in progress; I need to settle down and concentrate and deal with what I need to deal with in my life; I should've grown up a long time ago. That's my goal by the new year; usually, I set a resolution starting New Year's, but that has never worked, so now I'm going to put my New Year's resolution accomplished by New Year's. But for tonight I'm just going to watch TV until I fall asleep.
Tuesday was a great day. I can't wait to get up and out of this bed! Cindy came in and fed the hungry pooch, provided me, then got me dressed and up in my chair. Dude and I cruised down to the wharf and back; it has been so long since I've seen the waterfront, and it was such a beautiful sight! Cindy took Dude and me over to the animal shelter for the CCI puppy play date, once again, it was just Jan and I, and the weather was nice. I don't know why it's not working out, but we decided that even if it doesn't work out, we can just do it with whoever wants, even if it's only us. Soon he told me about this restaurant called the farm in Aptos, so we decided to try it, and it was delicious! I had a Cobb salad with prawns, avocado toast… I always wanted to try that and coffee. For dessert, I got a carrot cake cupcake, and it was so delicious! We cruised by Safeway to get my prescriptions and then came home; Cindy put me to bed and fed Dude before leaving. I just sat there and watched TV and played games on the computer. My mom came down at 4 PM to feed the hungry pup and then came back down at 6 PM to lock him in his kennel and so on… I just watched TV until I fell asleep.
Wednesday was a pretty good day. I didn't have Susan come in because I wanted to get up early and organize my garage with Andrea. Karen came in and fed the silly boy, fed me, and we did some personal care and, of course, a nice long hot relaxing bath. She got me dressed and up in my chair, and Dude and I had just enough time to cruise through the lagoon and come back. Today we decided to work on the cupboards; I kept telling her there was a lot more stuff in there than she thought… Needless to say, the last two or three times she left here, she was exhausted, and for some reason, I was also exhausted and not feeling very well from inhaling all the dust and who knows what else. I really can't believe I let it get this out of hand, and now I understand why my caregivers always look so frustrated when I ask them to put something in the garage. Just all the frustration, anxiety, ADHD, OCD diagnoses are not a very good idea when you have a spinal cord injury. I can't shut my mind off at night, I can't distract myself with the computer or the TV, I get famished, and all this makes me want to order stuff online. I hope to figure out other things and not order so much when I get everything organized and purged. Karen came back over and fed the hungry rover, fed me, and then put me back to bed and went home again. I keep meaning to take some before and after pictures, and I think I did take some before, but I haven't been taking any after, and now, of course, it's something else to think about while I'm lying here not being able to do anything about it. I don't remember asking Karen to take some for me tomorrow. The problem is that as much stuff as we hauled away from here, when you look at the space out there, it doesn't really look like we got rid of a lot, but I know we did.
Sunday was another relaxing day. Cindy came in and fed the hungry hound and then fed me; she put me on my side for a while and then took some pictures of the Halloween decorations in my house that Karen put up a couple of days ago. She is so creative, and it looks fantastic! Karen came in at noon, and we did some personal care and a nice long hot relaxing bath; I don't mind going back to bed after a hot relaxing bath. I watched TV for a while, and then I was out.