I've been wondering why I've been thinking about my mom so much, I think about her a lot but I've not only been thinking about her but pictures are popping up in my dropbox of her. Today is her birthday! Liberty was supposed to come in this morning but she messaged me and said that she was up all night sick, I feel like I've been calling on Brooklyn a lot the last couple weeks and I feel really bad but I don't know what else to do? She always put some a great attitude and comes in but I know it has to be annoying. I don't know what I would do without that girl! She came in and turned me on my side and got me comfortable and then went on with her busy life.
I've been trying to get rid of some of my subscriptions online, I'm always signing up for stuff as a trial for three days or seven days or whatever it is and then forget about it and end up paying a subscription for years and years and never using it. My nephew introduced me to a program called rocket money and it's great, it lets you know all of the subscriptions that you have and sometimes helps you get rid of them. It lets you know how much you spent in a month unless you know when you have an uncategorized entry. I got rid of a couple of subscriptions and that always feels great! One of them is dropbox, I asked ChatGPT if I needed it and I really don't but I had a bunch of pictures on there like 4300 so I downloaded them and got rid of that program. That's pretty much what I've been doing for the last three or four days because I kept losing track of the ones I've already downloaded and had to start over again, but it was all worth it.
Lisa, a friend of mine I met in Santa Cruz called and left a message so I called her back and we got to catch up, it was so nice hearing a friendly familiar voice! Unfortunately, I didn't get to know her as well as I wouldn't have liked to. She is so sweet and seems like a really good friend to have. I need to start calling and catching up with the people I really miss from Santa Cruz it's going to get to the point we really don't know each other anymore and I don't want that to happen.
Ashlyn came in and we did some personal care and I got to take a nice hot bath, I don't know if I need to get a new water heater or because there's just so many people here but it's hit or miss whether I get to take a really hot bath or just a warm one. Tonight was a hot one so I'm happy. The rest of the evening I just relaxed, watch TV and played games on the computer.
Tuesday
Liberty is still not feeling well, Becky came in and washed some clothes. Amy, the massage therapist, came in and gave me a nice relaxing massage. I was gonna get up but my stomach was cramping a little bit so I was afraid to get up. I'm really missing seeing the kids when they come, I love interacting with them and I can't wait to get back to the days I get up every day. Becky put me on my side, got me something to eat and one more cup of coffee and then left for the day.
Becca came in and brought Dude, Stanley took him to the vet and picked him up for me. He has an ongoing ear infection and it looks like we're getting it under control. We did some meal planning and then Becca went shopping, I'm really excited about this week menu. It's so nice to have somebody that will take on any recipe I throw at her. Last week she made me lasagna with eggplant instead of lasagna noodles and I was so bummed because I have a cold and I couldn't taste anything because I was so congested, it felt delicious in my mouth and I could feel the soft creaminess of butter on toast but couldn't get any of the flavor. I'll get it this week and then have her try it again next week when I hopefully got my taste buds back. This week she's making baked chicken, fajitas, roasted vegetables, spinach, mushrooms and sausage, breakfast casserole and banana, walnut chia pudding with white chocolate mocha syrup.
Ashlyn came in and I ate some of that delicious food that Becca made and she's going to set me up, I was laying on my side for the day, my bed was soaked and so was I. At some point during the day my supra pubic catheter leaked a lot, the same thing happened about a week ago and about half a week ago when she came in the catheter was all the way out of my stomach I'm laying on the bed next to me. I have never had this happen before, sometimes my little chocolate lab that really isn't that little anymore likes to crawl up and lay on my chest. It's really the only time we get to bond I think we're not going to be able to do that anymore and it makes me sad. I don't know how I'm going to teach her not to jump up here when she's been doing it since she was a tiny puppy. The good news is I got to take another bath and after I got out it didn't leak anymore, I nearly had to take another trip to ER. Last time it leaked my urologist admitted me to the hospital to get Botox injections in my bladder and it helped for several years but maybe it's time to do that again. I went back to bed and try to relax for the rest of the evening until Stanley came to put on my CPAP machine and take the dogs out one more time before we all go to sleep. I watched TV for a while until I drifted off.
Wednesday
Wednesday was a really great day, after the scare of going to ER last night I woke up dry and I was so excited! Becky came in and toilet and fed the dogs, got me some coffee and something to eat! She got me dressed and up in my chair and McKenzie and I and the two kids went to Costco, I haven't been out of my bed for about a week and we were going shopping? That could be very dangerous for me right now. We bought way more than we needed and picked out a few things to come back and get because we ran out of room, we stopped at Chick-fil-A on the way back home and came home and ate in the front yard. It was such a gorgeous day! I took Kona out for a 3 mile cruise and ran into a lady that lived down towards the end of the street, of course I can't remember her name right now. She lives with her mom, her mom had a fall several weeks ago and ended up in a care facility doing rehab and she said she was coming home tomorrow. After our cruise I came back home and got Dude, he looks like he was limping a little bit so we went slow and only went about one and a quarter miles. We cruised back home and I visited with McKenzie, Nori and Jude in the kitchen for a while. My phone was dying so the dogs and I came back into my room and McKenzie plugged in my phone, I watched Dr. Phil until Ashlyn came in. She took care of the dogs and then put me to bed, we did some personal care and everything went so smoothly. Ashley set me up and I spent the rest of the evening watching TV and playing games. I'm starting to feel human again.
Thursday
Today was a really long day. Becky text me and told me that she was going to be late, next thing I know there's a message on the dream team text saying that her car broke down and she wasn't going to be able to make it in would anybody cover her shift? We have a group text with all of my caregivers and McKenzie and I call it my dream team because they are, it's the best group of ladies that I've had I think ever and I feel so much more relaxing and confident every day because of them. Amy came in and gave me a nice our massage, there were so many spots on my shoulders that were so sore and she got the little knots right out of them. Brooklyn called and said that she was coming over to work with McKenzie and to grab some buckets for her mother-in-law, we had so many of those black bins with the yellow tops stored underneath the deck in the back and we decided to sell them. They are all gone. I was thinking about putting down concrete underneath the porch in the back, filling walls and a door and making it storage because you can never have enough storage. Brooklyn came in and put me on my side. I stayed on my side all day until Ashlyn came in, she was going to give me a bath and wash my hair but her husband had to get up at like 4 AM so she needed to go home so he could get to sleep, they have two kids that he had to stay up with until she got back. She said she would come back on Friday after liberty leaves, liberty usually leaves between four and six because she comes in early.
Friday
Becky came in and took care of the dogs and I really wanted to get up to take them out for a cruise but liberty was going to come in early so I thought I'd just lay on my side for the day. My brother took Kona to the dog park, I used to take both of them but all Dude does is lay around and look for poop to eat and I think it's a nice break so we have just been taking Kona and I'm sure it's a nice break for Dude to be able to relax and not have Kona laying on top of him all day. Just a Stanley dropped off Kona Naomi called and said that she was going to be mental Brown Park if we wanted to bring the dogs by Stanley took Dude I went to pick up Kona and took them to the dog park, I love it when the dogs hang out with Naomi because they adore her and they come home worn out from all the exercise and play. It really feels good when they're not pacing around the room but sleeping because they're so tired. Liberty came in and we did some personal care, I texted Ashlyn and she said she wasn't going to be able to come in so liberty set me up to my computer for the evening. Stanley brought the dogs home and liberty fed them and then she was on her way home. Ashlyn didn't end up coming to get me a bath because her husband was working late again. My friend Cruz texted me and we talked for a little bit and she decided to come over tomorrow morning. We barricaded my bed so Kona couldn't jump up here and I think she was too tired anyways. I found out a way to hopefully slow down all the emails I get, I just sent them straight to the junk file so we'll see how that works. Once I start something like that it's really hard for me to do anything else until I'm done.
Saturday
My friend Cruz texted me and asked if she could come in on Saturday and help me with some stuff around here, Cruz is one of those friends that's always around when you need her. Even when I haven't heard from her for a long time I could just text her and tell her I need help and she's right here. She's one of those friends that cares too much and she always makes me feel great, we always have so much fun together. Brooklyn came in and got me some breakfast and some coffee and her son had a couple of track meats so she went to go watch. Cruz gave me a nice long hot bath, got me dressed and up in my chair, we took the dogs to the park, stopped at Marco's got some lingua tacos, some tamales and a quesadilla. I brought home the tamales and the quesadilla for my nephew, niece and their kids to enjoy and they told me that they were really good. I've been trying to find a place to get some really good tamales, I see them advertised on Facebook marketplace but I'm so afraid to eat something from a kitchen that I've never seen before. I know they're probably the most authentic but I'm so glad I found a place where they are good. We came home and ate out on the front porchAnd went through some more stuff in the garage, it was such a beautiful day. Cruz took off and went home and Brooklyn came in to feed the dogs and put me to bed. I started playing the game and watching a movie but I was so exhausted I fell asleep, my brother came in to take the dogs out one last time and put on my CPAP mask but he said I just opened my eyes and said I'm going to skip it tonight and went back to sleep. I woke up in the morning and felt really rested and refreshed.
Sunday
Brooklyn came in and fed and toileted the dogs, fairy and we were about to get me up but the phone kept ringing. I hate answering the phone so I was just gonna let it go to voicemail and then Brooklyn picked it up and it's a good thing that she did because there was a nurse from United healthcare at the door and she was scheduled to come in today to go over my healthcare. I did have it on my calendar because I looked but I had just gotten a call from somebody saying that they were going to come out on Tuesday so I got mixed up that's why I expect her. She was here for a couple of hours and then she left and Brooklyn got me dressed and up in my chair and set up my computer so I could play on it for a while before it's time to go to my great nephew Wes second birthday party, I have the best family and my nieces and nephews married in to some pretty cool people so I love hanging out with everybody. Everybody is so kind and there's nobody getting intoxicated and starting fights. We ate dinner, had some cake and ice cream and watched Wes opened his birthday gifts. I started to get a little overheated, it was actually 85 today and the party was mostly outside. Stanley brought me home as the party was breaking up, Brooklyn came in to put me to bed and then went home. I spent the rest of the evening hopefully deleting my email for good, or at least passing it behind me so I don't even see it. Before I knew it it was 1030 and my brother came in and put on my CPAP mask and took the dogs out one last time before bed. Next month I'm getting a door in my room to go straight out to a patio and down to the dog run so they don't have to go through the house and won't poop or pee in front of the house anymore.
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